The Heart Of The Ocean

Even Years Later, I Still Feel The Welts. 
The Wounds That Never Heal.
Vulnerable. I Suffer In Silence...
Never Wanting To Dive 
Into The Ocean That Is Me.

The Waves Are Crashing.
I Feel Like I'm Drowning in A
Sea Of Memories That I Wish Would
Disappear...
Fade...
Just Like The Tide.

-redhanded. 

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