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Went to the surgeon today. They are happy with my health progress. Scheduled surgery for January 14th. See the surgeon again on the 16th of the month for any pre op medical procedures they need to do. Check my A1c is one of them so want to stay away from the sweets and keep watching what I eat till then. My primary Dr sent over paperwork clearing me for the surgery. Gotta call physical therapy to set up my first appointment with them 5 days after surgery. That way that is all ready to go. They say I'll wear a sling the first 6 weeks and then have PT a few times a week plus exercises to do at home. Recovery time is 6 months to a year depending on how I do. It's gonna take a lot mentally and I think I'm in a good spot now I can handle it. Just gonna suck making these appointments for PT and prob gonna have to use insurance rides and hopefully get my rides extended bc I only get like 10 I think. So will have to figure that out. Maybe if I call a case manager through my insurance they can help. Will look into that. I'm just so happy they can do the surgery now. I've really cut back smoking the last few days. Plan to quit and just use these pouches. Will save me some money too. I've already cut back a lot from where I used to smoke so my breathing is better and I feel more comfortable having the surgery with it now. Nervous about surgery. I'm not a good patient and don't listen well. Gonna suck with the dog bc I won't be able to do as much for him for a while so I'm hoping I can keep him calm and keep the peace. For the first few days I know I'll have to rest and sleep in the living room propped up. I like sleeping next to pogo so thats gonna be tough. May have to actually sit and watch TV. Or maybe I can read books. Figure for the first bit of recovery I'll take off school or pre print notes so I can study them too. Thankfully I switched all my platforms to digital so it will be easier. Don't know how much I'm gonna be able to use my right hand if they snip my bicep tendon like they think they may have to do. And hopefully I can still feed my birds and squirrels somehow. It's gonna kill me if I can't do it for a few days. They depend on me. But I'll cross that bridge when I get there. So thankful to be able to have a clean bill of health and the surgery I need for the future. Will be able to do my internship and volunteer and do the things I love again without pain. Good motivation.

    Have therapy tomorrow. And meet w my case manager. Need to work on my essay questions just had an overwhelming day today and shoulder was sore after all the tests they did on it today so I needed to rest. And I did. Got to get Xmas cards ready to send out. Accidentally mailed my friends package to the wrong address. Hoping she gets it. I'm gonna feel terrible and be out of a lot of money if she doesn't. I just wanted to make sure she had a good Xmas and gets it. I hope so.  Finch app is keeping me motivated. I love it so much. Really helps and my cousin is doing it with me too which is cool. We do tarot cards everyday as well. She is great support network for me and I'm so thankful for her. Time to do my to do list and read. That's all for today.