Its All In My Head

Back again. Not sure where I going with this just felt the need to write a little before bed to wind down. Busy week ahead. In the tail end of the module on animal restraint and handling. Have the farm animals portion next. I really worry bc I've not had experience with farm animals but have always wanted to be around them. I guess having the will to learn counts for something. I'm not sure how this test is gonna be because a lot of the holds need to be embedded in my memory and that will come with practice but I'll continue to study and study more when text arrives that our friend Linda sent us. We just have to pay her back when we get paid..she got a good deal on it and it was nice of her to do that.    I have decided I want to get healthy so I can be at my best to serve the animal community. That includes quitting smoking. Checking my blood sugars. Taking my vitamins and inhalers. Eating healthy. Drinking water. Making doctors appointments and exercise as tolerated. I ha...

Mood color: Mac n cheese orange This is my little get away spot to come to wen I need to get away for a few. Things are going well. Currently I have pogo out of his cage and flying around watching birds from a live feed. He doesn't like the other parakeets much he would rather watch wild birds. Blue jays are his favorite. Over the summer when we bird watch outside his eyes would get so big and he would yell to me like Dad did you see that? Yes I did pogo that's a blue jay. By the day he gets smarter. Ive had him almost a year now and here lately in the last few weeks he has really made a lot of progress in his training. He even puts himself back in his cage when he's done. Proud bird dad.      Been enrolled in school a few weeks now..already ahead but taking this module on animal.restraint a little slower so I retain the information good. Still have some cats, exotics, and farm animals to cover. My friend Linda ordered me a text book to help me.on the side bc not everythi...

Poem one of my parts wrote 

95% A on my test on animal behavior for class. Very proud of this score and myself. =] 

The Way The Universe Greets Me As I Step Out My Door To Provide My Offering, Always Makes Me Smile. I Hear All The Birds Chatter And Squawk In Excitement For I Am Bringing Their Offering, And They Are Excited To See Me. The Birds Know Who I Am. The Birds Care. The Birds Listen And Lift My Troubles Away On The Wings Of A BlueJay, Flying Away With A Peanut. I Am One With The Birds And I Belong.  +BirdMan. 

12.13.2023 11:45pm It's Us. Us Meaning The Parts Of You That Split Off Just Trying To Survive. The Multiple Personalities And People We Needed To Be To Get Through Our Trauma.   We Have Made It This Far So We Must Be Doing Something Right. Our Team Has A Face For Every Occasion To Protect Us Because We Have Been Through So Much, We Expect The Worst And Prepare For Everything. It Shows In The Way Your Cargo Pants Fall Off Your Ass Because You're Always Prepared.         I Want To Get Into The Habit Of Writing Just For Myself A Journal And Place Where I Can Comfortably Express Myself Without Being Judged. People Tell Me All The Time I Should Write A Story Because Of Everything I Have Been Through, Well Maybe This Will Be One---Who Knows What The Future Holds.       I Will Refer To Myself As "Us or We" When I Am Talking About My DID Systems [Dissassociative Idenity Disorder] As Well As When An Alter [Another Personality] When They Need To Write....

11.28.2023 1:55 Am            It's Been A While Since I've Written Anything. I Am Going To Try And Do Digital Blogs/Journals As Time Permits & Get In The Habit Of It Again. A Digital Format Saves My Hands From Cramping Up While Writing By Hand [I Normally Write Everything By Hand. I Like To Be Old Fashioned Like That.]              The Last Few Months Have Been A Real