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Waiting on my cousin to pick up my nephew. Got a lot accomplished today and feeling pretty calm minus dealing w my friend. I've tried to stay away from the negativity and love her from a distance though. She's going through a tough time and always bitching about something and never listens to anything I have to say. Only cares about herself. Very narcissistic and sue happy. I hate her situation I do but I can't save the world and I've tried all I can to help her. Tonight I know she's gonna Wana talk but I just can't go it. I need some time for myself. Gonna look at my new book and maybe read some of it and play some video games. 
    Decided to take the break off of school for this week. I need a week to recover after the low blow of a test I just had. Thankfully I passed but I'm burnt out and it discouraged me a lot. Sometimes I feel like I'm just not smart enough but then again this school.goes very in depth with what you need to do and while most of it I retain some things just won't grow in my brain and I will just never understand no matter how much I try. But I'm doing my best and passing so that's all that matters. A nice week off for the holidays sounds like a good idea. The questions will still be there when I return to my studies. 
     Been working on training pogo. Ita going well and gets better each time. He's very musical and I love my baby birb. Huck got his hemp treats today I think he may have the start of arthritis and they help with that too. He is chilled sprawled out on the couch and calm so they must be working. *crosses fingers* poor baby. I wish there was more I could do for him and make him better. But I know PTSD In a dog is hard. I'll just continue to do what I can for him always bc I love him. 
     Psychiatrist, therapist, and case manager tomorrow. So busy day. Need to work on my harris head. Haven't decided if I'm going to my family Christmas or not. Kinda just Wana stay home with the pets and enjoy their company but I like being around the kiddos too. So we shall see when time gets closer how I feel.
    Even if I have to turn my phone on silent I'm gonna have a peaceful evening. I need it. A good book some candles and some calm music. Maybe a cup of tea sounds lovely. 

Till later. 

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