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My little handsome beaker had a good cage cleaning and shower yesterday. He is currently birb watching other parakeets. His molting has stopped with showers and a molting supplement. I know it's uncomfortable for him but I try my best. Got a second pot of coffee on and it's delicious. Having a cup with pogo. Our friend Linda didn't have seed for her bird blue and couldn't find his type of food anyways so we ordered her some from chewy. It should be there in a few days. I'd like to be able to do more for her bc I know she's going through a tough time but I do what I can. I can't save the world. Gonna send them some nice Christmas gifts for her and the animals. That way they have a good Christmas since they probably will be alone. It's the least I can do for all she has done for me. Her friendship and calls mean a lot to me and I know she would do the same for me if she could. 
    Feeling a little under the weather. Need to clean the bathroom and clean my bird bath and rake my feeder but not feeling good and need a day of rest but its driving me nuts not doing something. At least I'll do some animal care. Pogo fly time. Maybe huck some alcatraz time. Gotta feed my bird and squirrel friends when pogo has his time. He's happy to be out. He is my soul birb. Trained to come out and go back in by himself w we I have on the TV. I keep trying to train him but he'd rather just keep to himself. Kinda autistic like me. But I won't ever quit trying. Perch of trust helps some. I love my baby beaker. 
    Got a Dr apt tomorrow bright and early. Got a list of my meds and concerns. Hopefully they fill the meds I need and my A1c has went down. I can't wait to get the surgery but have no idea on how im gonna do half of what I do now. It's gonna suck but in order for me to be a good vet tech and lift dogs and stuff I need it. Tomorrow is also T shot day and diabetic shot day. Tuesday I have therapy and I'm sure I'll meet w my case manager this week too. She's been a blessing and I love our time skill building. Been working on anger and I don't lash out but I do internalize it and that's an issue which leads me to depression.
Be back in a bit watchingbpogo and gonna get a few things done.
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