Its All In My Head

Found out what I'm doing for yule this year. Gonna do an aura cleansing, breathe life into my hawk feather, ah ka dua, make a yule log, write a letter to past version of myself and burn it to be reborn again. Put out the treat bell for the birds and squirrels. Light a candle for my ancestors since past. Maybe write a letter to my grandma too thanking her and updating her and burn it too so it returns to her on the wings of birds.     Weird thing happened today. I just finished reading the crow chapter of my bird medicine book and I never see crows in my yard andnthey are one of my favorites. There was a whole murder of crows in a tree near me. I watched them as they watched me until they departed. Beautiful moment. The universe is always sending me signs something no other religion could do for me.    I'm on a spiritual journey trying to find my place. Trying to find out about my native american heritage. So I can try and honor it. Getting a Egyptian pagan book ...

So idk what to do with myself right now. Got pogo out he is bird watching I'll turn music on in a bit and sing to him when he gets tired of the other birds.      Was only gonna do 1 essay question a day but finished all 4 today. Woot! Wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Hoping I pass. Bc idk what I could have done wrong if I don't. We shall see. Also printed some notes for class. Found it easier to print directly from their page instead of copying and pasting and making my own notes. This is easier and I can highline what's important. And use them for the test. About the same amount of pages 9n average too and less time consuming and I'll have them all in hand. Just don't like that the writing is smaller but I'm sure I'll do fine just wear my glasses. So that saved a lot of time today. Got to install a new ink cartridge bc I ran out half way through so I have more notes to print when dad installs it bc I didn't Wana break it trying to put it in. ...

Well a lot has happened these last few days. Got a lot accomplished. Was feeling groggy this morning so I stayed in bed and so dad took the dog out and he ended up biting the neighbor dog. Dog was okay though and lady wasn't mad. My morning was off because I slept in but I needed the rest. Got pogos cage cleaned and him a shower. Today he let me pet him for quite a while. He's getting there slowly. I may show him some videos of people holding parakeets I think he's smart enough to pick it up. I'm deff autistic all day long it plays the same different playlists at different times and I set the mood w fireplaces and calming nature music. He comes out when there's birds on the TV and plays with them. Then says we'll idc about these birds and  hops right back in his cage. For music time. Like dad I'm ready lol. He knows when the fireplace is on the TV that it's time to wind down and relax and stories will be re...

Journaling for my finch app again. Hoping to make a habit of writing just a few words each day at least. Been up since 4am. Couldn't sleep so got an early start and some time to myself playing video games. Got all my Xmas cards filled out w quotes and affirmations for the new year. I hope everyone likes them. I love the birds on them. Even on the envelopes! So cool! Still may have one or two more to send but they are all pre filled out and ready to be delivered. Been keeping my distance from my friend. I realize their negativity brings me down and they only care about themselves. Very narcissistic and I don't need that in my life. So I'll accept her friendship just love her from a distance. I dread phone calls with her bc it's so negative always. Don't need that. I need people who build me up not tear me down and make me feel guilty. Working w case manager on bipolar worksheets. Gotta keep a mood blog. Met eyes with a hawk in the yard today. Coopers hawk. Was an ama...

Not much to say. Just wanted to say I journaled for my finch app. Been out of my adhd med for days and going through withdrawals. No fun at all. Then today they said they didn't have my meds in stocks and didn't know when they would be in next. Then when I went out to feed the birds and squirrels a hawk flew over my head very close to me. My dad Then pulled in the drive way and in the other meds I had filled was my adhd med!!! I took it as a sign and gift from the universe. Mother Nature Never Fails To Impress. Especially with bird signs. She speaks to me. The birds speak to me.     Pogo has let me pet him a few times now and is doing great with his consistent training. Getting better by the day. So proud of my baby beaker.    Got clearance for surgery from my Dr and called physical therapy but they don't have my order in yet but I see the surgeon again on the 16th. I'm sure they will then. Excited but nervous to start my surgery journey. Afraid I won't listen a...